Cloverfield vs. Matt Fried vs. Guilty Consciene

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So, I finally saw Cloverfield last night. A little late at a year and a half after its release – I know – but better late than never. Suffice to say, I loved it. There is nothing better than a good, old-fashioned monster movie when you’re trying to relax on a day off. That’s what yesterday was all about; one day where I’m not: answering e-mails, going to the gym, doing comedy, thinking about comedy, going to comedy shows, writing comedy. I wanted to make Wednesday all about comic books, vegging, and monster movies.

Okay, I admit that I achieved 50% of my goal. I broke down and answered some personal e-mails, and marketed the blog for a little bit. Does this officially make me a workaholic? Probably.

In my hosting class, we watched an old Dick Cavett interview with Jack Benny (who at the time was in his late 70s to early 80s). Benny commented that he loved to work; he loved entertaining people. I love to work, too. Mostly because, I work from home. That means I am writing this from my work desk (i.e. bed). My work fills me with a sense of self-worth. It let’s me get just as stressed out as every other New Yorker. However, I’m beginning to wonder if it’s the work, or the stress of work, that gets me up in the morning. The fact that I have a typical schedule – packed with busy work activities and steady progress towards the achievement of a larger goal – makes me feel like a valid working individual. Similarly, if I don’t complete any of these tasks by the end of the day, I feel like I’ve wasted all my time. So that means: I will forego the gym, breakfast, lunch, laundry, vacuuming, showering – all in the name of working. Because without my work, I truly feel as if I’m just another lazy slob.

So, to be precise: yes, I am a workaholic. I’m the worst kind of workaholic. I’m the guy with high productivity and a guilt complex.

How does something like this happen? I guess, when you really care about what you do and you live in NYC, it just does. Ever since I started writing professionally, it seems like not much else matters. Which is why – though I do long for human interaction – I can get through a whole day or two without talking to someone else in person. I do recognize that this is unhealthy. But I can’t seem to help it, either.

For example, I’m writing a screenplay right now. I started writing it in one of my classes. It started as a 16 page treatment, that I then sat down with over Easter weekend and sought to revise as a bullet point plot outline. Just as I was passing the three-quarters mark, the Monday of a show week came up. Historically, the week of my talk show is always busy, and I’m forced to set anything else I have aside. Before I finally got to resting on Wednesday, I had to take care of various loose ends on Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday. Then, it is AT LAST Wednesday. For the last 11 days, my script has been sitting on my dinner table, unfinished.

But I’m telling myself “You’re resting today.”

But the script needs to be finished.

“You’re resting today.”

But the script –

“You. Are. Resting. Today.”

But –

“…”

Next thing I know, it’s 3:00 in the morning, and I’m pouring over the final details in my script. The sad fact is: I can’t relax until this thing is done. I can’t sleep. I can’t eat. I can’t let it sit and collect dust. It needs to be done. The script. My work. Sanity be damned.

I’m a workaholic. That’s just the fact of the matter.

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4 responses to “Cloverfield vs. Matt Fried vs. Guilty Consciene

  1. Haven’t visited your blog in a while.

    Being immersed in doing what you love is a great thing. I wish it were that way for me. This year, my goal is to make it that way. Have you tried setting up a personal schedule for yourself? Designating a certain amount of time and place for the things that you do so that one activity doesn’t overlap the others?

    Oh, and here’s what I didn’t get in “Cloverfield”, they fired at the monster’s body and said he was invincible. How come they didn’t shoot grenades and rockets into his mouth? That would’ve killed him right on the spot.

    I’ll tweet ya. I’m CSamurai.

  2. It’s weird that this is such a common problem everywhere. It’s even a sin. One of the commandments. “For six days you shall labour and do all your work…the seventh day…you shall not do any work.”

  3. iammattfried

    @Jason Hey man, what’s up? I do put together a schedule. I actually can’t focus without a list in front of me. I’ve just been so burnt out recently that it’s hard for me to walk away from any one project. As for your Cloverfield question, we’re also talking about a movie where the walked from Spring to 59th Street in 20 minutes.

    @Joel What’s funny is that it’s a very New York problem. When I was in Chicago, it’s such a social city, that I think that allows for people to leave their duties for tomorrow at 5 p.m.

  4. So, I finally saw Nosferatu last night. A little late at 87 years after its German release(and 80 after its American premiere) – I know – but better late than never. Suffice to say, I loved it. There is nothing better than a good, old-fashioned monster movie when you… Read More’re trying to relax on a day off. That’s what yesterday was all about; one day where I’m not: answering e-mails, going to the gym, doing comedy, thinking about comedy, going to comedy shows, writing comedy. I wanted to make Wednesday all about comic books, vegging, and monster movies.

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